[ Tekanan Graviti Hati ]

This is last day

at 

ALPHA COLLEGE OF TECHNOLOGY

whats going on here?

I feel sad and upset. There is lot of things hurt me here.

Including someone who really I thought can be someone of my someone.

Last day, I just kick someone who try to touch me.

FUCKING SHIT!

and last night,

I and him stay at the ladder of my dorm.

And I am shocked to see MAT REMPIT that is guy who want to try to touch me a few day ago.

Shit!

To the guy :

aku ingat kau kawan aku. tapi kau lebih dari seekor SYAITAN. kau fikir aku apa!

but its okay, because.

SATURDAY [ 12 NOVEMBER 2011 ]

i am leaving 

Its too hard for me to make this decision while leaving someone who I need,

I want and surely I LOVE with all my heart. 

I don't know whether he can loves me as I DO..

Dear him,

I am tired to stay like this. If you can understand, my life is confused now. I don't know and I am not sure If I make the right decision for my life. I am so sorry dear. Please forgive me. I hurt you.

Last, I have promise to you that I am the One who will cares and make you happy.

But I am the one,

The one who always make you hurt.

Get angry and upset.

SORRY AGAIN. and I think its not enough to treat you heart,

You know what, every step that I take today is the million wrong answer for my life..

Damn it! hmm. I am worrying to let you alone here. I don't want to faced any changes someday that will hurt you. I don't feel brave If I have to lost you someday.

I don't want to faced the statement. It will hurt me million times than before.

This time is the last day, that both us fight.

The day that I am waiting you text and hoping you to contact me.

But Its okay.

Maybe leaving tomorrow will make you feel better.

Sorry Dear, still loving you.

p/s : queen. Please controlled your self. Don't ever let tour tears drop again.

 Thankyouforthebleedingheart.